i'm tired of feeling like an ass.
like someone always has to be on the lookout for me.
tonight i came home drunk.
and everyone let me know.
i feel it's time to stop.
i have become my father.
i'm being honest when i say i don't want to be the guy everyone had to watch out for.
i drink because i'm upset. i drink for a purpose.
elevator music plays in my head and i'm transported to a time when time after time played on repeat because of someone else.
i drink because i can't control it.
i drink to be closer to you.
i feel bad because i want to be alone.
because i want to walk home at 2AM,
because everyone expects this from me.
you can never win in life. i have learned to accept this.
tonight i will listen to nancy wilson and imagine it was me.
i'll imagine it was me...
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